One more month and then my contract here in London ends. My direct manager would like to extend me, but the harpies from HR have decreed that he can only hire someone permanently (for a certain value of permanent) instead of having me contract for a while longer.His boss on the other hand would consider keeping me on for a bit longer (after I convinced him that I really don’t want a permanent job; I guess not a lot of people understand that stability can be a dirty word). It’s not certain, but I feel there is a very decent chance.
But do I want that…?
On the one hand, I enjoy working at the company, I like being in London (having a girlfriend here might have something to do with that…) and the role sounds particularly interesting. It would entail (relative) certainty, security and a (somewhat) predictable income.
On the other hand, I miss my friends and family back in the Netherlands, and I would really like to have the time to focus on a few things I’ve had pushing at the back of my head for a while now (a book and a risk model specifically). Freedom and a very uncertain but potentially much larger upside lie that way.
The specific role most probably is a “now or never” (and it really does look very appealing!), even though it would be temporary. The personal projects will still be there in half a year (or even in three).
So there is a risk versus safety component, an enjoyment factor and a timing issue. Making this quite a difficult decision indeed (I’d almost wish that I wouldn’t get a new contract, as that would take the choice out of my hands!)
The most important thing to remember (and to keep telling myself!): Whatever happens, it will work out. I can’t predict the future, good stuff and bad stuff will happen either way. And I’ll never know the outcome if I’d taken the other option.
Does anybody have any good insights?
I’m Bastiaan. This blog is meant to give you some insight into the things I run into and perhaps to inspire you to go in search of your own life extraordinaire.
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